| my last entry n i gotz nothin to say......but yea anyways like the new pic??? i juss woke up when i took that pic so yea thats what i look like when i first wake up....sry alden....lol...wellz luv ya all n peace
~lauren~  |
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| THAT IS LIKE SO WIERD!!!! lol..sorry babe i had to do that! well yea for everyone else....my new site is www.xanga.com/tootsie_baby_666 ..... look at it n DONT write in here i cant see my comments! wellz yea thats it fer now...luv ya
~lauren<3~ |
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| well i have been cryin for the past three hours so i feel a bit better....i just wanna take back what i said.....god alden deserves so much more than me and sometimes i dont know why he stays right by my side if i keep hurtin him.... i feel like i have been givin the biggest gift in the world....well he IS the world to me...so i just wish it would all go away....n then kristina got pissed cuz we were talkin n she was tellin me things that i didnt need to here right then so i told her that she wasnt bein very helpful n so she was pissed at me(ooo lets see how many ppl i can piss off in one day.....well ima go now ttfn
lauren |
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| nothing can ever go right when it has to deal with me.....i tend to mess everything up and screw around with ppl and make them suffer unintentionaly.....take alden for example...when we first started talkin...he was happier and now....he isnt.why? cuz of me....i messed things up and i wish he could be happier.....i know he loves me n is the best to me.... but i know that without me, he would be happy...i hate myself...im a screwup and i can never change that...i wish i could though...just seems that it wont go away....i cant stand myself anymore...i love him soo much n i hate when i make him feel this way n i know its my fault....i try to be but i just say the wrong things...or i say them n they sound right in my head but wrong when they come out....i just read what alden wrote to me in my xanga n it seems that i hurt him more than heal him...opposite of what he said....he said that i made him happy today n now he gets to go to bed very much the opposite....i cant to anything right....i should just give up trying.... everyones life would be easier... without me there to mess it up...im a burden |
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| To Spend Forever
by Amanda E. Rogers
I give you my heart
Mind, body and soul,
I give you my love
For you make me whole.
I give you this promise
The promise to try,
I give you each breath
And the tears I cry.
I give you my past
My future and now,
I give you my thoughts
My hope and this vow.
To give you my voice,
And the music I sing,
I give you forever
I give you my world,
All the pain and strife,
I give you my hand
Learn to share my life.
I give you this kiss
And these words I say,
"I'll cherish you always
As of this day."
I give you my faith
That these words are true,
For today, I swear,
To spend my life with you.
awww!!! well we know who this goes to!! I LOVE YOU BABE!!!!!
~laur laur~ |
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